Sometimes, many of us feel as though we’re…well what I like to call, a robotic Muslim. Like a mechanical, well-oiled machine, we go through the movements of prayer, have our lips recite surahs, raise our hands and make du’a…and still, almost tragically feel nothing. Sometimes that connection we so desperately yearn towards God isn’t there. Sometimes we can’t make-out why our hearts aren’t instantly uplifted, purified and feel that euphoric feeling everyone who pray seems to talk about.
And it makes us question a billion things about ourselves.
“Am I doing this right?”
“Is God mad at me?”
“Have I sinned too much?”
“Why do I feel nothing despite doing everything?”
And the answer is you’re human. You will not be at your highest level of faith 24/7. You’re not always going to be 100% motivated to pray, recite Quran and do extra good deeds. You’ll find that your faith is very similar to the ocean. At times it will be like a tidal wave where you’ll feel a high. And you’ll want to submerge yourself into your religion full-force with enthusiasm and excitement. And at other times, it will be calm and cold, almost still. Where, like a cold glacier, your faith will freeze over. Not really gone. Not really as high. But simply there.
And just like at the bottom of an iced ocean, where there still exists life and living creatures. I know deep inside, you’re still alive with faith. Deep inside you’re still holding onto God. Praying and wondering when you’ll break through these desolate and cold phases in life.
And that’s why I encourage you to stay holding on to the rope of Allah. Because you know that your faith isn’t all gone. It’s not dead. It’s simply pulsating. It still breathes life onto you, even if it isn’t as strong. Don’t give up. Not now, not ever. The times when you’re low in faith are the times you need to be engaged in all the acts of worship that will bring you closer to Allah, even more.
Sit there on the prayer mat and cry, even if you feel nothing. Force those tears out. Ask God to save your tender heart from the darkness that consumes it. Recite those surahs and really comprehend what you’re saying.
Bismillahir-Rahmaaner-Raheem — In the name of Allah, the most gracious, most merciful.
There is not one thing we Muslims engage in or begin except for remembering these attributes and qualities of Allah. Ask the most gracious and most merciful to have mercy on your dwindling faith and struggling soul.
Because life has this tendency to take us through a series of emotions. Sometimes we’re faced with grief and loss. Other times we’re faced with happiness and joy. And although it’s certain that these emotions will never truly be permanent, what will stay permanent is who God is.
Your dimming faith is not permanent if you don’t allow it to be. But you see, faith isn’t just an emotion, it’s a full-fledged system of beliefs. It’s a state of mind, a lifestyle, the lenses in which we use to see the world.
So unlike your emotions which sometimes can’t be controlled, your faith can. But it requires work. It requires effort on your part. It requires patience. It requires hope. It requires consistency in calling out to God. And it requires you to be persistent and wholesomely believe that Allah will pull you out of the dark all while you internally fight the discouraging thoughts in your mind that tell you to give up.
You should never give up. And don’t think God wants you to, either. Because the first step towards reconnecting with God, is to truly understand how much He desires, loves, and yearns to reconnect with you too.
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